I have spent a considerable amount of time speculating about whether we get wiser as we get older, and – if so – can that wisdom be communicated? But what if the end of learning, of trying, of experience, is to simply realize what we knew in the beginning? Stay with me.
After the future Buddha had pursued years of ascetic training and sacrifice, he was still not enlightened. He asked himself whether there might not be a better way. Immediately he had the memory of sitting as a child under the shade of a rose-apple tree watching a ploughing ceremony his father was participating in. He remembered the relaxed joy and communion his younger self felt with the world around him and immediately knew that this was the way to Enlightenment – back to that simple childhood awareness.
I recently came across this quote from a Japanese Zen master (thank you Tim Miller) who was writing just a few days before his death about how he had finally come to faith and resolution about life:
One might ask if it wasn’t just an accident that I came to faith after engagement in strenuous study, but I would say it was not an accident. It was essential that I should do it this way. My faith has within it a conviction that all my self-power efforts are futile. But in order to be convinced of this futility of self-power, it was necessary to exhaust all my intellectual resources and get to the point where they would not reassert themselves. This was a most strenuous business. Before I reached the end of it there were quite a few times when I thought I had acquired a religious faith. Yet, time and again my conclusions were shattered. As long as one tries to build up a religion on the basis of logic and intellectual study, one cannot escape this difficulty.
This idea that one only understands by “giving up” or looking back to what one knew before one started comes up again and again in wisdom literature. We could recall the motto of Socrates: “I know only one thing–that I know nothing.” One might think of Job, who tried to figure God out, only to be struck down in simple awe at the end. Or Saint Teresa of Avila who entered joyful trances as a child by twirling around with her brother chanting “Forever, ever, ever” – a level of contemplative ecstasy she only came back to in later life. But it would seem that we must go through the process of trying to get there. But (and this is one of those big buts), then, we must step back. I have often talked about the value of quiet and reflection in old age, and maybe that is the purpose of such reflection.
Then there is my friend Spinoza. Spinoza wrote an entire book (Ethics) trying to use the geometric/logical method to figure out the nature of man and the best way to live. It is full of axioms, propositions, and postulates. It is a great book. But in the end, we get this: “The greatest striving of the mind, and its greatest virtue is understanding things by the third kind of knowledge.” And what is the third kind of knowledge? It is intuitive knowledge. And yet, the last paragraph of the Ethics cautions us: “If the way I have shown to lead to these things now seems very hard, still, it can be found. And of course, what is found so rarely must be hard.” So it would seem that Spinoza agrees with my Japanese monk – study hard and then – step away?
One of my favorite pieces by Spinoza is the manifesto he wrote as he started out as a young man. It delineates what he was looking for (“knowledge of the union existing between and mind and all of nature”) and how he is going to live and work as he gets there (great rules of life). As far as I can tell (and I am no Spinoza scholar), he followed those rules and tried to find out how humankind fit into the scheme of things. He studied hard, thought much, and wrote it all down. But he ends up by talking about intuition.
Here’s a story. When I went back to piano lessons as an adult, I told my wonderful teacher that I loved to play but had no ear and was almost incapable of memorization. After a few lessons, he told me I was mistaken – he had been watching me play and said I seldom looked at the music. I did not believe him. I believed – to some extent still believe – what I was told as a child. You have no ear. Maybe the trick is to clear away things we were told, not keep adding to the logjam of debris in our minds. To let go. Clear the decks. Get back to the rose-apple tree. It’s not easy though.
Fiction reading for this week is a new story, “Reflections,” which thinks about ways that our younger selves can (sometimes) pull us back to our centers. It is about physical reflections and mental reflections. Enjoy.
2 thoughts on “Wisdom and the Rose-Apple Tree”
Loved the post and the story! As I was reading your message, Theresa of Avila’s Interior Castle came to mind…then you mentioned her. Theresa’s description of the progression through the mansions matches the Zen teacher’s observations. We begin our moving towards The Divine through the use of our intellect and strengths, but there comes a point at which we must let loose our ego self’s striving in order to experience the longed for union with Divine Presence. As Richard Rohr says, if it is true anywhere it must be true everywhere. Maybe Jesus and Buddha are on the other side of the mirror laughing. May you be well in all.
Thanks Mike. It means much to me that you read my blog. Peace and health to you. And may we meet in person one more time someday! Cheryl